Spread Love
Help Others and Yourself
There are loads of haters not worth a thing, if you want spread hate go spread it on yourself and don't even read this.
I've been following this girl with hope that I could talk to her, yes I do that sometimes with random people because I know kind words can make a difference (and believe me I've been awful to the ones I love the most, sorry bros.. I really love you..)
She's just a 13 year old girl, her mom beats her and prolly with other situations influence, only at this age she has constant suicidal thoughts. I know every one has their own way to deal with life, I know there are people that wouldn't be like this and many people will blame her for her thoughts but honestly.. it's so sad.. I'm not saying that I've never been depressed, that I've never had suicidal thoughts, most of us already had and I'd be lying but I know I can not do much.. I just wanted to spread the word and if you can send her a message either with your own experiences, something serious and show her we all have to fight maybe just maybe we save a life.
I try to talk to depressed persons now and then, I don't judge I listen. The rest of the world already judges.. But i really want to help them and I know every each case is unique, I know it's a fight a person has to do with herself, as I have my own fights to keep balance and sanity. But if everyone was nice to each other honestly this wouldn't happen. Friends wouldn't betray, parents wouldn't beat, others wouldn't rape, etc. But there will always be those persons, for as long as there are humans, life isn't fair, not even to innocent animals who have to hunt each other for necessity. But if you can make your part, say random kind words, if you feel it go tell and don't hide. We already hide too many things, we should at least share love and forgiveness..
In a personal note I've been feeling a bit down and nervous with several situations. I don't know why but when I realize it I've been the worst to the persons I hold most dear, and I do mean I've been the worst. I scream with violence and I react with hate. We all have flaws and I am fighting my own, I swear I am. Because I don't want to loose the persons that I love, and my most dear best bros ever. I love you guys I do and I swear I'm completely regretful to the way I talk to you sometimes.. When I realize it I just get more mad at myself and don't know how to apologize, because I don't feel any words will ever give me a reason to be forgiven. But it IS worth it. I DO need to apologize if I feel it's the right thing but I also need to keep fighting to get balance and peace for me and for others.
What I mean is, we all have flaws and we all will have to learn how to deal with them, how to transform them and perfect ourselves. It's very hard but in the end it will be worth it. I want to share peace and we need to find it in ourselves.. but a few nice words will always always help, even if just a little tiny bit, we will have them in our minds.
And I love you guys for putting up with me, and with my completely explosive way. I love you guys because you smile to me everyday even if the last thing I said in the night was I hate you, I love you guys because you will fucking tell me to calm down and look at myself when I do mistakes, not run away from me. And I know you will be there. I won't let myself ruin this.
Please spread Love
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